Baby Little Twiddle Adventures

While she is peacefully sleeping in her pod, waiting for the full level of delight to fill her up,  some bad elements called Sneezy and Coofy tried to hound her mommy. It's been a week and mommy is feeling frustrated already because she cannot drink over-the-counter meds. 

She just keeps praying to Papa Jesus and the lovely forces of the universe to heal mommy already. And that none of these bad elements get to even a stone's throw away from her. 

By the way mommy doesn't know if Little Twiddle is a he or a she. It's still a surprise. <3

Tale of The Little Twiddle

Once upon a time, there was a little twiddle

Papa Jesus was walking around the garden, and he spread out some bursts of sunflower puffs, star sprinkles, happy thoughts, good vibes, love for all, joyful delight, and openness to the world, mixed it together and poof! Little Twiddle was born!

He was sent down squishing and flying from the ends of the universe until he settled into the womb of a clueless 29 year old who hasn't even found her own place in the spotlight. But she was surrounded with so much love. And beauty. And kindness. and that was enough.

*To be continued*

Week 9

Well, being out of options somehow let's you focus. Because well, you have no choice.
So far I'm still here and haven't filed my resignation.

Little twiddle is quite behaved this week, I didn't have abdominal pains like I did last week. Probably because I also now feel calmer now that things are more laid out.

Doesn't mean it's all good from here. There are still a whole lot of worries in terms of finances. I just try to pray and tell God that I leave this all to him.

Week 8

I still can't believe i'm going to be a mom. and apparently a whole lot of pregnant women feel that way too. It looks like a lot of them survived. So I probably will too. *cross fingers, lahat na*

I'm at a fork-road, if they take me in I will get myself ready for war again. But at least I could rest my mind easy knowing that i'm already where i want to be for medium-longterm and then just focus on the new work and pregnancy. I really dislike limbos it stresses me too much.

If they don't take me in, hello freelancing and learning-how-to-be-more-domesticated world. I definitely will have to leave this job soon. It's a messed deal.

Hello Baby! We feel like you'll be a girl but I'm okay if you're a boy too. :)

Today we Broke The News :)

The euphoria of everyone around is rubbing on me :)
We also had our photobooth session a while ago and everyone was congratulating us.

There's a live baby inside of us. It's gonna be a little M or a little R. :)
Thank you Lord <3

mmm

at the end of the day though, when I remember having to go back to an office where i feel so ineffective and so dumb, i feel terrified again.
and insecure.
what if i don't become a good mother :'(

Life is giving me so much, but am i making the most out of it? how do i make the most out of it? by being grateful, by being in the moment. by being the best that I can be.

But really Lord, thank you.

Could not break the news to officemates

Because I do not feel very celebratory. I hope next week this gets better.
Hormones are making me feel really emotional I feel like crying so much and just running out of the office. Woooh Lord help me please.

I FEEL LIKE CRYING EVERY TIME I TALK WHAT THE FUCK

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A good friend gave me good pep talk today. Huhu thank you Lord for people like them <3 <3 <3

Week 7 (perhaps)

Back in the job I hate.
But I will try my best to give this another go.
All for this little beauty, all for this beauty.